---I want to explain a little bit about how I am feeling knowing that I only have 3 and a half weeks till I fly to the United States. I don't miss things, because I know they are at home waiting for me. Sushi, salad, peppers, berries, Julia's porch, basketball on my daddy's big tv, they're all going to be there when I come home--so I don't miss them. I just yearn for them. I am like a twelve year old shopping with my mother, I know my mom will buy me something by the time we're done, but I want it nooowwwww. But as much as I want these things I know I don't want to leave here. I want to go to New York for two weeks then come back here.
---All my close friends tell me I am the happiest I've ever been here. That comforts me, and confirms everything that I've felt so far while I've been here. But its a bit scary at the same time. What if I never find happiness like I do here? Could I really move my life away so far from my family and friends? There is a lot that I miss about home, but there is a lot more that I'll miss about here. The eager smiles of kids, the way women take you under their wing, the constant conversations on the street -- I don't know how I'll survive without all this in New York. Strangely enough I think of a place like the city and feel more comfortable with the idea of living there than I do on Long Island. Making friends with all the store owners on the street, passing the same people very day and sitting to chat for a minute before heading home-- that's what I want. Long Island filled with its avoiding eyes, passerby conversations and uninterested listeners scares the you know what out of me.
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Perhaps you can help us here get a bit of the community spirit and connection that you recognize is so important. Remember not to generalize too much about any group of people-they will stop in LI or NYC to chat and give you their right arm if you take the time to engage them. I usually dont, but I should.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I am so happy for you and expect that your sunshine will be even stronger than it was before-we need that brightness, so get your lame ass home asap!!